Woody Woo

The other night I wandered about the Princeton campus. I love it - it's so beautiful, and cold, and warm, and strong. It fits almost any mood. I love to walk along the path that goes through the building with the outdoor square at the center, giving this strange feeling of being both in- and outdoors. Once you leave the square, you are confronted by the "chapel" that is more like a small Gothic cathedral. It's terrific on the inside, and magnificently towering from the outside. It brings back memories of the cathedral in Freiburg that I spent many a night walking around or sitting at and pondering all variety of things. I walked along the pool outside of the Woodrow Wilson building (i.e. Woody Woo), and even found the building itself appealing. Now I know I must be in a funk, because normally I think the thing looks like a monstrosity. I liked the campus that night because most of the students are gone, so it felt very empty and private. I found myself getting mad at the people who passed by for disturbing my aloneness with the campus, and yet at the same time I felt a million miles away from each person I passed. You know that mood when you are holding your lover, and you want to hug them, squeeze them so hard. You can't seem to squeeze them hard enough - it's not that you want to hurt them, just that you want to get them so close that you are one with them. It's not a sexual thing - just a desire to be so close to someone that you don't know where they end and you begin. Yeah, it was one of those nights.

I walked around the campus again, tonight (twice in 3 days, and I would've last night if not for the sudden shower). I went back to Woody Woo and watched people splashing around in the pool and fountain. The temperature was perfect with a slight breeze, and everyone seemed so relaxed and peacefully joyful. I couldn't help but laugh for no good reason, despite my funk. I even liked Woody Woo again. What is happening here? I couldn't stand it before. I guess we do change.

When I got home, I looked up into a beautiful star filled sky. Then I noticed the fireflies. Absolutely amazing - so many of them all around me. It's like tiny little lightning storms all around you. It was one of those moments you just want to share with someone because it's so cool, with the twinkling stars and fireflies.